So I started feeling alive again but it was short lived for 4 days the pains were down to its minimal and I thought hurray I'm going to beat this I am getting back to my old self. Everything is going to be alright..I am going to conquer this crap! then the left of my spine started hurting and blisters showed up and I thought wow this is new . I didn't run to the dr cause quite frankly I get tired of going to them cause you feel like a pinball in a machine. Guess I should have because I have shingles. The burning is pretty bad in my left thigh but it really isn't any worse than what I live through everyday. My Dr didn't give me any med to speed the process because I waited to long to go see him. I guess I need to spend all this free time I have becoming a freaking doctor myself so I know exactly when I should go. (sorry for the sarcasm I just gets so frustrated. Like my whole life has changed completely with no control on my part and I try each and everyday to be positive, to be grateful, I try to keep my faith secured deeply because I don't think I could get through a day without my faith, but This is SO FRUSTRATING. I find myself thinking and worrying about what is next? What virus, or germ is lurking in side my body just waiting for my immune system to get low enough to just knock me down some more. I'm sorry for the rant, I trying my best but I guess I am just to damn tired!
Sorry to hear Beeb! Hang in there. Hoping you feel better. Keep the faith.
Ann
Thanks Ann I am seriously trying, and I know everyone understands. I guess I just needed a place to vent! Beeb
Ann D. said:
Sorry to hear Beeb! Hang in there. Hoping you feel better. Keep the faith.
Ann
I hope that this passes reasonably quickly. How frustrating!
Beeb I'm sorry you're going through shingles. They are so painful by themselves, let alone on top of everything else. It may sound strange but thank you for the rant. You expressed very well what I feel fairly often as far as no control & worrying what's next. Know that it gets better. Sending prayers and gentle hugs.
You expressed exactly how I feel inside, but I try not to think about or say out loud. Nobody wants to hear it, they wouldn't understand unless they live it, some try and bless them. But living it is different.
I seem to find myself waiting for the other shoe to drop and then it does and as if I have more feet, I wait for the next one.
I understand and am so sorry you are going thru this.